Bienvenue.

This blog is a very tiny window into my blogging life. A narrow, frosted window; the kind you usually see at the dentist's office to shield from view the impending torture slowly deviating toward your mouth.

Unfortunately, most of my blogging content is too personal to put up publicly, and I feel bad because 99.9% of the people I mention it to won't ever have access to it. So I made a public blog. It has resulted in the debacle that is this account - a superficial outpouring in humorously obscure, skewed ways.

Sunday, December 7, 2008

James Bond incites strange thoughts...

I'm always a big fan of the movies and books that, despite the fiction based background it becomes set in, it always parallels real life and emotion in some sort of way. I love the story has a moral that you can ground into your personal philosophy, or at least one that you can contemplate over and decide whether or not it is applicable in any way, shape or form in which you live your life.

There's a part of me that abhors Disney to a point (maybe there was a reason I didn't watch a lot of those cartoons as a kid) because of this. Disney is so full of crap sometimes. I much prefer Japanese anime in terms of the story lines they deliver -- they're much more life applicable most of the time (because well, you can only dig around Bleach for so many morals before you're pulling them out of your ass).

Take for example The Girl Who Leapt Through Time. What a marvelous ending. Not the happily ever after, but the sad truth that life doesn't magic into being what you wish could come true. That while extenuating circumstances do exist, there's no fairy godmother that's going to make you a Swarovski-envying diamond ballgown.

Considering how optimistic I usually am in terms of life, I guess its a surprising contrast to see that I love the tragic ending. The endings where someone dies. Where there is betrayal. Where there is the self-sacrificing virtuous person that fucks up everyone else's happy ending thinking that they're doing the right thing, but in reality, because they died, they've doomed everyone they're leaving behind to a semi-miserable existence because they can't live without her/him. Those fucked up endings? Absolutely love them.

I believe the person that you believe you will fall in love with in your mind truly exists somewhere in this world -- but the likelihood of you ever finding them is nil to none. However, have hope. Because while I believe that certain someone exists somewhere, a person is always compatible with many others.

However, I believe in working for love. I believe that relationships are something that you have to fight to keep, to maintain. The reason I love the Kushiel Legacy series so much is because this is a relationship that gets thrown through the fucking hardest of all freaking trials physically, and doesn't break. But when they're put through the emotional turbine, the couple shatters. But then they work to make it through it all, because despite all their differences ideologically, life wise, and everything else, they truly love each other in spite of it all and try to make it work. I won't say much on it considering I've convinced a few people on my F-list to read it soon, but it truly is an amazing trial of lives to read.

I took a lot away from it, and believe me, the fact that its fiction takes nothing away from its amazing parallels to human relationships.


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How this relates to James Bond:

Vesper is someone he finally took a chance on and decided to love, giving her what he regarded as "what was left of his soul," considering his line of work had most likely wreaked havoc on what he considered a strong moral conscience. However, he believes she betrays him to the bad guys by giving them the $150 million that he won, and consequently, she ends up dying by choice after locking herself in an elevator and drowning to her doom.

Considering James Bond had just retired for her, and wanted to possibly spend the remainder of his life with her, he got severely fucked over in the head because:

a) he is a playboy, and actually taking the time to love someone probably didn't come easy to him.
b) of all the ways to ever be betrayed, it was to the terrorists over $150 million.
c) he probably has never taken that chance on anyone before, and will probably never again.

THEN he found out she didn't really betray him, but actually negotiated his safety when they got kidnapped and he got stripped and hit repeatedly in the balls with an iron ball.

So she wilingly went with him after all that, after him telling her that he "loved her," and willingly took the remainder of his soul, and effectively, with her death, killed that remaining part of him as well.

Poor guy.

I think that's why I liked this Casino Royale/Quantum of Solace series so much. Because at the end of it all, the reality of it all hits much harder at home than if they had just gotten their happily ever after.

Saturday, December 6, 2008

Did you pass? - Idiot Test

http://users.skynet.be/bk258512/idiot_test.swf

Edit 1:
OH MAN, Emiel,
You win for the most failed.

In my attempt...

In my attempt to make a more public blog with senseless drivel, I've lost the content value that my other blogs usually hold. You know, with information that would rather make a person contemplate than mindlessly click into videos online. It's strangely unsatisfying, as I've always been a person that would like to make a person think and reflect upon their own life.

Unfortunately, I usually use myself as the main example, which is usually the reason why its not included in this blog.

Russell Peters - DDR

Russel Peters, Asians, and DDR.
Enough said:

Silence

My words have literally left me now.

It feels strange.

I don't think I've ever lost my voice before.

It brings me to imagine what it would be like to be mute.

The sound of my own breathy, raw, low and cracking voice startles me.

Thursday, December 4, 2008

Teal Time



FACE:
- MAC Studio Fix Foundation

EYES:
- Base: Urban Decay Primer Potion

Spread MAC Teal Pigment all over base of lid, MAC Mega-Riche Pigment on inner lid, MAC Freshwater on middle lid, MAC Cool Heat (LE) on outer lid. MAC Shimmermoss on lower lid, with MAC Blue Flame (LE) in the crease. Highlight is MAC Nylon brushed over with MAC Retrospark.

CHEEKS:
- MAC Dainty (LE)

LIPS:
- MAC Love Nectar



** Note: LE means LIMITED EDITION. They're the one-time collections that MAC has sometimes. There are lots of similar colors though, so don't be afraid to use another similar shade.

Oh my effing... One Man, One Cup?

Oh man. Oh MAN. OH MAN.

Okay.

Okay.

Okay.

Uhhhh... don't click this link.

I clicked it, but I'm all for the "all knowledge is worth having" tidbit of life.

I mean, I've watched all of Two Girls, One Cup.

But coming from a nursing perspective, oh goshjsdhfjkshdgjklhsjkag.

I'll give you the title of this little number:

One Man, One Cup


That should be good enough warning.

Don't say I didn't warn you. - NSFW!


Credit: wtf_inc@LJ

Strange fetishes in the world...

You know, I've taken HECOL 211 - Human Sexuality. I've been exposed to some pretty freakin' interesting fetishes some people have (like, we watched this "documentary" (read: semi-porno) about this one guy had a rubber fetish - like, tires probably turned him on and in order to get off or anything, the woman had to be wrapped in a industrial rubber suit that prevented electricity from zapping her to death).

I've seen the 10+ peircings on men's penises, more holes than I want to see in the labia of females, and a clitoris with a giant diamond stud (of all the ones I've seen, that would have had to be a bitch to get because all the clitoris is, is a giant freakin' bundle of nerves). Only in pictures, mind you, but its enough to get the gears working.

There are some strange fetishes out there, but like, whatever. I don't judge (much). You like what you like, it's something that's personal to you.

But seriously this made me LOL:



http://boysarmpits.com/

Can you IMAGINE the dirty talk associated with this?

"Oh baby, let me raise my arm and show you a treasure trail you've never even thought of."


Credit: wtf_inc@LJ

Tuesday, December 2, 2008

Games on my Wish List:

Man, school's a bitch. I haven't sat down and played a video game since before I left for the Philippines, which was in July. Then I came back two days before school started, and that's the end of that story. My PS3 and XBox 360 have just been sitting there as a big fat waste of money.

Here's a list of games that have been filtering in the back of my mind for a while, but I probably won't even be able to sit down and play with them until the break.

/sigh
  1. Final Fantasy XIII
  2. Final Fantasy Versus XIII
  3. Little Big Planet has recently entered my radar, but I'm more intigued by the concept more than anything.
  4. Prince of Persia
  5. Street Fighter IV
  6. Kingdom Hearts 358/2

Purple Time

I realllllllyyy dig Temptalia and her makeup efforts, so here's my try to emulate her. Henri, this shit is for you, you know. =)






FACE:
- MAC Studio Fix Foundation

EYES:
- Base: Urban Decay Primer Potion
- Inner Lid: MAC Shale
- Outer Lid: MAC Trax
- Middle Lid: MAC Star Violet & MAC Noctournelle
- Crease: MAC Top Hat (LE)
- Highlight: Lancome Creme Lustre
- Mascara: Lancome Definicils
- Liner: L'Oreal Carbon Black Liquid Liner

CHEEKS:
- MAC Plum Foolery

LIPS:
- Oops, forgot. I ended up putting on MAC Liqueur (LE) later on the the day though, to play on the purples.